Like that old Native American story about the two wolves that live within us-one is dark and vicious and the other gentle and loving. I realized part of my perspective was a choice.
#Get your life back in focus full
And yes, it’s almost summer and it’s easy to feel a little giddy with a head full of pollen and flowers perking up all over. I felt like something awesome was about to blossom. I actually argued with myself about it- really? not a sense of impending doom?-because between the new tick-borne disease that can kill you, Antarctica melting and unprecedented species extinctions one could easily feel doomed.
One recent morning, I became acutely aware that I had a sense of impending good. I rarely go there these days, but won’t lie and say I never do, but the visits are shorter and far less intense.
I ditched the drugs and alcohol over a quarter-century ago, but it took years to move my thinking to a higher level-less doom, more aha! That darkness always looms nearby and attempts to drag me back to the mental gates of hell. It was darkness, drama, and depression with a dose of alcoholism and addiction to secure that state of being. I manage to keep up thanks to the overwhelming array of options now available all day long from millions of sources (a few that are quite credible) other than network news channels.įor a variety of reasons, my natural state-of-being earlier in my life (teen and early adulthood) was not bliss or happiness or anything like that. You would think I was blissfully ignorant about the world’s issues, but oddly enough I’m not.
I personally stopped watching the news on a regular basis many years ago, with the exception of CBS Sunday Morning, which is the NPR-of-TV to me (and even that I only catch once every few weeks). Man, if you’re obsessed with news channels, it’s hard to see the good in life.
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